I generally just tried to keep my head above water during this times when I revisited all of the things I had started and stopped over the years.
When I look back, many times during my life I have found myself pursuing “things” in order to prove that I could accomplish something. I would take on a mission or a project just to numb the feeling of isolation in our law enforcement marriage, or numb the confusion of our spiritual lives being on different paths. Pursuing, progressing or trying new things can be a solid part of your growth in many ways, but doing it for the wrong reasons can invite some deep sadness. In my mind, I defined many of my starts and stops as “failures” and it is tough to get past.
The Ups and Downs of Life...